My Own, Personal Miracle

May 20th 2016 was a beautiful day, but I hardly noticed it. “Complete Placenta Previa”….My midwifes words hit me like me a ton of bricks. Here I was, pregnant with our 3rd child, hoping for a normal, peaceful birth (unlike my first 2….John was born in the check-up room, and Isaac was emergency caesarean due to prolapsed cord), and now that hope was gone.

As we talked to her, my Midwife explained that there was a slight chance that the placenta could move, but was unlikely considering how far along I was at that point, and, if it did move, would probably not be enough for a natural birth. Also, there was the possibility of Placenta Accreta – where the placenta attaches too deeply to the uterus, and, if there’s too much bleeding, could require an emergency Hysterectomy. I needed to plan a cesarean. Not only that, but I would need to find a more equipped facility, preferably with NICU, in case of emergency.

I fought tears all the way home…not only was I going to have another cesarean, but this may very well be my last pregnancy.

We stopped at a Walmart, and, while Kyle ran in, I stayed in the van. I was numbly listening to the radio, when suddenly the words of the song hit me…”Daddy’s don’t just love their children every now and then. It’s a love without end. Amen”

I realized that through everything that was happening, God still loved me and was ultimately in control of it all. I was free to just trust Him, and let it all play out as He saw fit.

The next several weeks were still incredibly difficult for me, and I spent many days in tears, struggling to come to grips with it all.

What if I had to have a hysterectomy and this was our last child? What if it was another boy? What if I never had a baby girl?

I remember one day in particular, I was doing dishes, and just pouring my heart out to God and asking Him, “Why would you let this happen? We are trusting you with the amount of children that we have, so why would you only give us 3? Is it so wrong that I want a girl someday? What if you never give us one?”

And God’s response nearly knocked me off my feet…

“Are you really trusting me with the amount of children you have? What if I only want you to have 3? Will you still love me and trust me, or will you only trust me if I give you more? And what if it’s my plan for you to only have boys? Will you still be happy?”

I literally stopped washing dishes; shocked.

I had never thought about it that way.

Throughout those weeks, I also heard 2 songs on the radio that encouraged me so much, “Trust in You” by Lauren Daigle, and “Thy Will Be Done” by Hilary Scott.

We had so many friends and family praying for us, and we were praying constantly as well. It wasn’t until later that I realized I had been praying differently from everyone else.

I’ll spare you the details, but we FINALLY found a doctor that would accept me, and our insurance….he was LITERALLY the last one on our list. The cesarean was scheduled for Sept. 6th (one day before our 3rd anniversary).

August 5th, we had another ultrasound to verify just where the placenta was, and the severity it all. As we watched on the monitor, I braced myself for the news I knew was coming….but it never came.

“I don’t see any sign of previa”, the technician said, “not even partial”.

Kyle asked her about placenta Accreta….”nope” she replied, pointing at the screen “you can see right here that it’s not attached too deeply.”

When we had finished and were waiting for the doctor to come in, we tried not to get too excited. We braced ourselves, thinking that we would still have to have the cesarean, just in case. But we were wrong. Doctor said I could go ahead and try a natural birth if we wanted, everything was fine!

Talk about an overwhelming sense of Joy!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn’t get texts sent out fast enough when we got back in the van!

SOOO many people told us that they had been praying for a miracle, and for God to completely heal me.

And this is where I realized I had been praying differently than everyone else….you see, I had been praying for the cesarean to go well, and that I would see Gods purpose in it all…I never once prayed for healing.

I was just in awe of what had taken place – for God to take a complete placenta previa and move it 100% in that short of time, was nothing, and I mean NOTHING, but a MIRACLE.

On September 30th, Jackson Everett joined our little family, healthy as can be.

And to this day I still marvel over all that took place in those few short months, and just how much my Faith grew through it all. God did not have to do what He did, but I think He chose to do it all, just to show how big, powerful, and loving He truly is.

And I have a baby that I snuggle and kiss every single day that proves it.

I’m back!

So as I looked back at my last blog post, I realized it has been much too long since I have written! However, having 3 little boys is keeping me quite busy!

In my last post I announced that Johnathan was going to be a big brother. On June 21st 2015, Isaac Nathaniel joined our little family…..but the Lord decided that Isaac too needed a little brother, and so, on September 30th 2016, Jackson Everett joined our little family – I now had 3 boys under the age of 2.5 years.

So, needless to say, blogging went by the wayside as my days were filled with the many needs of my family.

To be honest, I didn’t think about it too much, but here lately I feel like the Lord is calling me back to it….at least occasionally anyway.

The Lord has taught me so much in the past (almost) 4.5 years that Kyle and I have been married. I never knew the amount of sacrifice that went into, not only marriage, but especially motherhood – children have a way of teaching you a lot about yourself that you never knew!

So, as I sort through, and pray about all I’ve learned, and all I want to share, I’m hoping to blog more – whether it be to help other young moms, or give single gals a glimpse into what married life and motherhood is like, or just to simply give you all a good laugh J I would appreciate your prayers for the following as well

– For time to write (yeah, that’s a huge one!)

– For an open heart to write whatever the Lord would want me to, and not what I think needs to be written.

– For my readers to see God in all that I write

I’m excited to see what God has in store for me as I start writing again – I sure have missed it!

Thank you for all your encouragement in the past, I love hearing from my readers!

So, until next time…..

Our Family “Christmas” Letter :)

(written earlier in January 🙂 )…….  I know most people do a family update letter around Christmas time or New Years, and that was my intention this year, but, with so much going on in our family, that didn’t happen  🙂 So, I figured that even though it would be ‘late’, you would all still enjoy an update 🙂

As for Kyle, he is enjoying working at a factory making custom countertops.  We both enjoy the fact that, for the most part, he only works 4 days a week, making for longer weekends!!  He’s been a great help with Johnathan, and even around the house!  There have been a few nights where he has made supper since I’m just so worn out, and he enjoys cooking anyway 🙂  He’s also been enjoying ice fishing a couple of times so far this year – although I think he is really looking forward to going fishing more this spring/summer 🙂  I am so thankful for a very patient husband, who doesn’t care if there are dirty dishes on the counter and laundry needing done, because I took a nap instead of working….he just wants me to feel rested and knows that I will get the work done….eventually 🙂  He is such a huge blessing to me!!

As for Johnathan, he is growing up so fast!  He turned 7 months old on the 13th of January 🙂  He’s been scooting/crawling around, trying to sit up on his own (he can sit on his own if I set him up), and has his first tooth coming in!  His curiosity level is constantly growing, and he’s figured out how to pull things out from under the couch.  If he’s awake, he’s pretty much on the move!  There’s no holding him back 🙂  I have a feeling he will also be pulling himself up on furniture before too long.  He’s taken a great interest in music already, loves to hear me play piano and guitar, and sing.  He’s even tried playing the piano a little bit, but hasn’t quite figured out to push the keys a little harder 🙂   He’s also been trying more foods here lately…pears seem to be his favorite, but he eats green beans, and carrots just fine too….although I think his favorite part is blowing them at me when he’s had enough!  He pretty much sleeps through the night, and I am SO thankful for that!! It makes for a much happier Johnathan… and momma!  He sure does bring a lot of smiles and laughter to our home, and we are so thankful to God for him!!

As for me…well….my days are filled with being a mommy…..dishes, laundry (and lots of it!), cooking, cleaning, taking care of Johnathan, and some days, trying to maintain my sanity!! 🙂   My parents have been a great help, and mom comes down whenever I need her to, and helps me out….and I must say, that is a HUGE blessing!!  I’m super anxious for spring to get here so I can get out and get gardening! We didn’t do a garden last year since we lived in town and moved out to the country in May….and had Johnathan on the way – I just didn’t need one more thing to do 🙂   I have been loving this stage that Johnathan is at!  I mean, he’s been fun and great at every stage so far, but watching him learn, and to hear his giggles….this is just a super fun stage for me 🙂

As for the youngest member of our family….yes that’s right 🙂  For those of you who didn’t know, there will be another little one  joining our family in June 🙂  We find out in just over a week whether it will be a boy or a girl, but you will all have to wait until June to find out, as we are keeping it a secret 🙂  I think some people think we are crazy to have children this close together, and while it wasn’t exactly in our plans, we left that up to God, and are so excited for this new little one!!

Everybody keeps telling me I’m gonna be one busy momma, and I know that’s true, but I am still so excited about a new baby 🙂  Ever since I was about 3 or 4, all I ever wanted was to “be married and have babies”.  I am now living my dream!

So, as I sit here and watch Johnathan playing on the floor, babbling to himself occasionally, I marvel at just how many changes have happened in the past 16 months since Kyle and I got married 🙂  God has been so good to our family, and has blessed us beyond measure!

May you all have a blessed new year!

Sara 🙂

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Oct. 2014

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7 Months Old

7 Months Old

Being a Mom :)

I started writing this post July 9th, but since I don’t have internet access at home, it’s taken me a little while to actually get it posted 🙂  Enjoy!


I’ve learned a lot about being a mom in the 4 weeks since Johnathan joined our little family.  It’s all been a learning experience, but it didn’t really hit me until yesterday, just what being a mom really is.

It’s sacrifice. 

I always knew being a mom wasn’t easy, and required a lot of work, but I never truly understood the amount of sacrifice, and selflessness it took.

Gone are the nights of being able just to sleep – here to stay for awhile, are the nights of getting up every few hours to nurse a hungry baby, change a messy diaper, and rock my little guy back to sleep…while fighting not to fall asleep myself.

Gone is the freedom that I used to have to just be able to take off with Kyle at a moment’s notice and go do something fun – now we either have to plan ahead, or sometimes I just get ‘left behind’ because it would be too difficult to take Johnathan.

Gone is the ability to “plan” my day – now it’s just a matter of getting done what I can while Johnathan’s sleeping, or between feedings, and diaper changes.

Gone are the days of being able to put on an outfit in the morning and wear it all day – I now have more laundry than ever, due to baby spit up, and overloaded, leaky diapers.

And if that was all I focused on, then life would be very discouraging and overwhelming right now.  But it’s so much more than that! It’s all the ‘little’ things that keep me going, and make it so worth the sacrifice, and selflessness…like a little toothless smile as he dozes off right after he’s eaten, or those times right after his bath, when he’s all fresh and clean and in his pajamas, and I can just cuddle and rock him.  It’s those little cooing noises he makes when he’s swinging in his swing; happy as can be.  It’s those big, baby blue eyes looking up at me; so full of wonder and amazement.  It’s his little hand holding tight to my finger.  It’s his little head on my shoulder as he sleeps; feeling his warm breath on my neck.  It’s the funny facial expressions he makes when he’s looking at me (my favorite is when he crosses his eyes and purses his lips!).

So yes, while life as a mother can be very taxing and draining (both physically and mentally), it can also be the most fulfilling thing ever!

But it does take an amazing amount of sacrifice and selflessness.  I have to learn to put Johnathan’s needs before my needs/wants.  I have to learn not to dwell on what I can no longer do, and instead, focus on what truly matters, and thank the Lord for this time of life.

I have found that the most difficult times for me, are when I do get my focus off of what matters, and focus totally on myself and what I’m not getting.  When that happens, I find myself very emotional and worn out (just ask Kyle, he’ll tell you just how emotional I can be at times! 🙂 ).

I’ve said to myself during difficult times that “this too shall pass”. But at the same time, I don’t want to miss out on this time of life.  There are so many little joys at this stage, if I just keep my focus where it needs to be.

Let me end by saying this…..being a mom is wonderful – albeit challenging at times – and I wouldn’t trade it for anything! 🙂

Sara & John


The Arrival :)

June 13th dawned like any other day, but little did we know that our little blessing would soon join our family!

I woke up a little after 10am, and at 10:10 my water broke (due to circumstances though, I wasn’t sure if it really had).  I wasn’t having any contractions, but had a slight cramp that went away.  I debated what to do…should I call the ob-gyn office and let them know?  My midwife was gone that day for a family activity.  I started making a Quiche to take with us to the birthing center, just in case I really was in labor.  Around 10:30, I decided I would at least call and let them know I thought my water had broken, and just see what they said I should do.

I talked with my midwife’s assistant, and she told me a couple things to try to see if I was really in labor, and said to call her back in an hour and let her know.

I did what she said, and I also started to have more cramps, but nothing real bad – just like menstrual cramps – but there still weren’t contractions.

I called her back around 11:30 and left a message telling her this, and a couple minutes later, Kyle called me from work on his lunch break.   I debated whether or not I should tell him what was going on since I wasn’t even having contractions yet.  I chose to tell him, and he said he was coming right home!  I told him not to; after all, this was our first baby and they usually take awhile; it probably wouldn’t be until evening.

We decided to wait and see what my midwifes assistant said and then I would call Kyle back and let him know whether or not he should come home.  She called soon afterwards and said it sounded like I might be in labor, and if I wanted to come into the office and be checked I could; but they would be closed from noon to 1 for lunch.

I relayed this info to Kyle and he made the choice to come home from work.  I went back to working on the quiche I still hadn’t gotten made (I had taken breaks to sit down every now and then due to the cramps).

By the time Kyle got home around 12, things had progressed rather quickly, and I had given up on finishing the quiche, and was laying on the couch in great pain.  I still was not having timeable contractions however; it was more like one long contraction that wouldn’t release.

I asked Kyle to finish making the quiche, and we could just take it with us and bake it at the birthing center.  He went to the kitchen to work on it, and a minute later and I told him to just forget about it – we needed to leave!

He hurried and changed his clothes, grabbed my bag, and out the door we went! When I got in the Bravada, my one long contraction stopped, and they became timeable – although by this time, I wasn’t even thinking to time them.  Kyle was, however, and they were about 4 minutes apart.

We got to the ob-gyn office at 1:00, and by this time I was fighting the urge to push, and Kyle had to get a wheelchair for me since I couldn’t walk.  The midwife assistants were just getting back from lunch.

They got me into the room, checked me and said “Um, you’re fully dilated.  Do you want to go over to the birthing center, or do you want to stay here?”  I chose to stay there (even though the birthing center was really close)…there was no way I was getting back into that vehicle!

They hurried and contacted the midwife that was there and told her to get down there quick!

At 1:42, we welcomed Johnathan Andrew into our family. He weighed 7lbs. 2oz. and was 20″ long.  Kyle even got to help catch him, and cut the umbilical cord 🙂   About a minute after he was born, my midwife (the one who was gone for a family activity), came hurrying into the room; hoping to be there in time.

A few minutes later they moved us over to the birthing center for recovery.  I walked from the office to the car, carrying Johnathan, and they said it wasn’t the first time to have delivered a baby in the office, but it was the first time for somebody to walk out after delivering!  Usually they need a wheelchair 🙂

We were at the birthing center until about 5:00/5:30 and then we came home.  When we got home, Kyle’s dad and sister were out mowing our yard.  We had more family come and visit that evening, and ooh and ahh all over the new little one 🙂

Johnathan has been such a wonderful addition to our family, and even though we have rough times, and sleepless nights, I love having a little one in the house!!

God has truly blessed us!!!

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Changes :)

The past almost 9 months have gone by VERY quickly, and I have not done a very good job at keeping my blog updated!  It seems like my life has been so full of changes here lately, I’m not sure where to even begin!

The end of February, Kyle started a new, full-time job.  It has been challenging for him at times, but also a time of growing and reaching out to the others that he works with (a light in the darkness, you might say).  We weren’t sure at first how the work would affect his back problems since he would be driving a fork-lift, but Praise the Lord, his back has been doing incredibly well!  This, of course, was encouraging to both of us!

Along with Kyle taking on the new job, I had to take on a new “job” as well…learning how to encourage him when he would come home after a bad day.  There were many times when I would get discouraged when it seemed like nothing I said was helping.  It was through these times that God taught me to “shut up & pray”.  And, as I began to fervently pray that God would either give me the words I needed to encourage Kyle, or that He would encourage him in some way that I couldn’t, I began to see a positive change almost immediately!  I was SO encouraged 🙂

Oh…and let’s not forget to toss in all the emotions, and mood swings I have endured (and Kyle has too!), throughout this pregnancy!  I have been blessed with a very caring, and understanding husband!  He does his best to understand what I am going through, and why in the world I’m crying, when just a few moments ago I was totally fine! 😉

As our little one has continued to grow strong and healthy, I have loved feeling the kicks and almost constant movement!  There were times, however, when I wished it would stop moving so I could go to sleep, or that it would at least get its feet out of my ribs so I could be comfortable….but then I would remember a young couple that we know, that experienced a miscarriage not too long ago.  Oh how I’m sure she would love to feel what I was feeling, and here I was complaining that I wasn’t comfortable!  I would then begin to thank God for our little one even more…even if it did mean I couldn’t breathe, or sleep comfortably.

Like I said, our lives have been full of changes, and we experienced another big change about a week ago…

You see, Kyle and I both pretty much grew up living in the country, but when we got married, we rented a house in town from his dad (a HUGE blessing, let me tell you!).  While we liked the house we were in, and it wasn’t so bad being in town over the winter, we were seriously considering moving when Springtime rolled around.

Long story short, at around the middle to end of April, we were totally ready to move, and even had a house lined up (one that his dad owned out in the country!).  When we went to look at the house, (it had been quite awhile since I had seen inside), we suddenly did not have a peace about it, and, after much thought and prayer, decided we would stay in town…after all, that house was working just fine for us, and we would have room for baby.

The beginning of May, Kyle was out to the other house helping his dad with some things, and when he got home I knew something was up.  He asked to sit down and talk (something he does NOT normally do!).  He told me he thought we should reconsider moving.  We went that night and looked at the house again, and suddenly I knew…this was where were supposed to be!  We both had such a peace about it, and instantly knew we’d better start packing 🙂

We wanted to be all moved and settled before the baby was born, so about a week ago, with the help of family, and the use of their trucks and trailers, we got a majority of our stuff moved in!  There are still some things that need to be moved, but we’re working on it as we can.

We absolutely LOVE it here!  Being able to watch sunrises and sunsets, hear the birds, see fields all around us, and just enjoying the peace and quiet has been SUCH a blessing! Not to mention we are also a lot closer to family, and that makes it really nice for getting together and visiting 🙂

As I sat out on our porch swing yesterday, watching Kyle grill steaks, and just enjoying the afternoon, I told him that, I don’t think we would appreciate this place as much if we’d been given the opportunity to move here right after we got married, instead of living in town.  He agreed.  It’s amazing how much you can take for granted, until you don’t have it.

We feel so blessed right now!  With only 3 weeks until the baby’s due, excitement has been building in our little home as we prepare for his/her arrival!  There’s a pack-n-play set up in the corner of the living room, and a bassinet up in our room, waiting to be assembled.  Baby washcloths and lotion sit on the bathroom shelf, and a car seat graces the back seat of our Bravada 🙂

God also blessed us very greatly a yard sale! We were able to get a pack-n-play, car seat with 2 bases, infant swing, and stroller, all for about a fifth of the price it would have been brand new! Kyle said it’s crazy that he’s getting excited over ‘baby finds’ at garage sales, but I think it’s cute 🙂

So, as Kyle and I get ready to celebrate our 9 month anniversary on Saturday (good gravy, where did the time go?!), and also prepare for yet another change the end of this month, with the arrival of our little one,  we would greatly appreciate your prayers!

God has been so good to us!


A Look Back at 2013

I remember writing my ‘Look Back at 2012″ blog post, and thinking, ‘man, this was a busy year!’.  Little did I know that 2013 would be even busier, and have even more changes!

The end of December 2012, Kyle and I had started to talk about God leading us to a courtship and eventually marriage.

In early January, Kyle began prolotherapy treatments on his back, to see if they would help with the extreme back pain he was struggling with.  Even though it took several months and the treatments were very painful, they did, in fact, help his back tremendously!  Over those months, however, God took us through times of struggle; not knowing when to enter an ‘official’ courtship, since we didn’t know when his back would be healed and he would be able to work and support a family, and other times of discouragement.

The plan was finally set that, on April 17th (exactly 9 years after we met), we would ‘officially’ start courting (I wasn’t supposed to know this, but had insider information 🙂 ) Things did not go as planned.  My grandpa passed away April 11th, and since dad really wanted Kyle involved in the funeral as a paul-bearer, we ‘went official’ April 12th.

The month of May was filled with wedding plans and yard sales!  The Lord blessed us tremendously with a lot of wonderful deals on furniture and other items we needed 🙂  We also set our wedding date, but did not announce it, since there hadn’t been an official engagement, due to certain reasons.

June was also filled with more wedding plans and yard sales, and on the 28th, an official marriage proposal was made!

July was filled with, you guessed it!, more wedding plans 🙂  And also family gatherings, and anything else we could squeeze into our schedule 🙂  We did a lot of fishing over the summer as well, with some friends of ours, and that was quite fun!

August came, and with it both of our birthdays 🙂  Last minute wedding details were put into place, and we anxiously counted down the days!

Then came the blessed day!  September 7th!  There were SO many people willing to help out with anything that needed done, and that made the day go so much better!  Everything went well (including smashing cake in each other’s face!), and the day went incredibly fast!  We had a very relaxing honeymoon at a cottage on a lake for a whole week!

Then came October, and with it, the news that, the end of June, there would be an addition to our little family!  We were thrilled!

November came flying in before we knew it, and, while still trying to get settled in, there was the hustle and bustle of family get togethers, and Kyle being busy with work 🙂  I was still struggling with pregnancy sickness, and feeling exhausted, but I managed to make it through 🙂

December arrived, and with its arrival, came the departure of the pregnancy sickness!  Just in time for Christmas dinners and lots of good food!!!  It was also our first Christmas together, and that made it even more special and fun! 🙂

So, with today being the last day of 2013,  it amazes me to look back and see all the changes that took place this year!  A year ago tonight, Kyle and I were just starting to pursue that much desired relationship we felt God was leading us to, and now, here we are…married, and with a baby on the way 🙂   God has been SO good to us!  We don’t even deserve half of what He’s done for us!!!

The verse God gave me a year ago tonight was, “You crown the year with your bounty, and your carts overflow with abundance.”  Psalm 65:11

Praise the Lord for ALL He has done!!

Happy New Year Everyone!


Give Thanks……Don’t Take it for Granted!

About a year and a half ago, I was at a bridal shower for a friend, and the women there were taking turns giving words of wisdom. There were a lot of wonderful things shared, but the one that really stuck with me was this, “Don’t take him (your husband) for granted”

Here lately I have been thinking about taking things for granted. As I sit here, I can list a lot of things that I do take for granted, that I shouldn’t. So as Thanksgiving approaches rather quickly, the following is a short list of things that I want to learn to be truly thankful for and not just take for granted.

Kyle Being Healthy; being a hard worker; having such a servants heart; being patient; and pretty much just being the most awesome husband ever!
Being Pregnant
Having a vehicle
Kyle having work
A husband that likes to laugh
Kyle’s strong, yet gentle hands
Being able to openly be a Christian

God has blessed me with so much….why shouldn’t I take more time to be thankful for it? 🙂

He didn’t have to….He chose to

As I lay in bed this morning, feeling sick and nauseous (more than usual), I could hear the clatter of dishes in the kitchen.  As I lay there, I began to see just how TRULY blessed I am!

You see, Kyle didn’t have to work today, and since I was feeling sicker than usual, he allowed me to stay in bed and rest.  He got up and made himself breakfast, and also made me some bacon to nibble on….but He didn’t have to…He chose to.

He also brought me a glass of Vernors Ginger Ale, with ice (I’m an ice lover) …which, He didn’t have to…but he chose to.

And while I was resting, my wonderful husband was in the kitchen, washing a HUGE load of dishes and cleaning up the kitchen.  Once again it crossed my mind…He didn’t have to…but he was choosing to.

Those ‘simple’ choices that my husband made today, may not seem like much to anyone watching…but to me…they were blessings!

So as I sit here and write, I once again, realize that when God brought Kyle into my life, He brought me the most wonderful blessing of all!

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Changing Roles

I’ve been thinking back to this time last year, and just pondering how much things have changed since then and how many ‘roles’ I have been in! Last October I was single, and unsure what God had planned as far as a relationship between Kyle and I.

Then came December, when Kyle and I started courting (although we weren’t ‘official’ until April), and I took on the role of girlfriend…and in June the role of Fiancé! Then that blissful day in September, I once again changed roles as I became Kyle’s wife 🙂

But the changing of roles isn’t finished yet…

I have taken on another role…

The role of being a momma!

That’s right! The Lord has chosen to bless us with a little one, due the end of June 2014!

There is great excitement in our home as we discuss names, what we think the baby will look like, and whether it will be a boy or a girl 🙂

God has surely blessed us!

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