Prayer for Journey….

Dear Friends, family, and fellow bloggers,

As I prepare to leave for Journey to the Heart this weekend, I’d like to ask if you could be praying for me.  There are 3 things mainly:

1.  That we would have safety traveling

2.  That my WHOLE heart and mind would be on God, and that I would use this time to FULLY seek Him.

3.  And this one may sound a little weird, but my right shoulder (below my shoulder blade actually), has been hurting and it’s quite uncomfortable.   It started hurting Friday night…the same night I made the decision to go on Journey.   The only one other time that it’s bothered me like this was at the WIT conference back in July.

I am really looking forward to going…to have one on one time with God, free from distractions and (I say this quite happily!) housework  🙂

Speaking of which, I have a list of things I want to get done before I leave…and it’s sitting on the table next to me, calling my name.  I’m half-tempted to just throw it in the woodstove…

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Journey to the Heart

For those of you that regularly read my blog, you are probably wondering what my answer is about Journey to the Heart.

Well…I’m working on packing my bags already!!

After a lot of prayer and consideration, I feel that this is what I need to do, and I have a peace about it.

So after going from “wait” to “no”, the answer has once again changed…this time to “go”!!!  It was not an easy ‘journey’ to get to this point…there was a lot of frustration, prayer, and many, many questions – not to mention all the journaling I did in that time as well.  But I know this is where God wants me, and I’m really looking forward to what all He is going to show me.

 

Is it “no” or “go”?

I am not the kind of person that enjoys making decisions…especially big ones.  If I have clear direction from God, however, it’s not a problem…it’s those times where I can’t quite hear what He’s saying that are difficult.

Like with Journey to the Heart…I have been praying for the last 2-3 months about this and asking God to put everything into place if I was meant to go.  For awhile the answer was the same…. “wait on me”…so, I waited….and waited…and waited.  I started getting very anxious with the time rapidly passing by and still not seeing provision.

Then I started to hear something different…I started hearing a very faint, ‘no’…and it was not what I was hoping for.  Very discouraged and upset, I continued praying…praying that ultimately God’s will would be done, and if the answer really was to be ‘no’, that I would accept it, and move on…thanking Him for His answer.

And so it’s been for the past 2 weeks or so…me praying…more like pleading….for a CLEAR answer…even if it would be ‘no’…just so I had an answer.  And it seemed like Wednesday/Thursday I got my answer…I would not be going on this Journey; and I was fine with that…I actually had a peace about it…until today.

It seems things are starting to fall into place a little bit for me to be able to go, and now I don’t know WHAT the answer is.  I had such a peace about staying, that now, thinking about going, I’m not sure if it’s what God really wants…the answer still isn’t clear….

It’s just so hard to tell if He’s saying ‘no’….or if He’s saying ‘go’.

A Christ-Like Attitude

I’ve noticed that most of my blog posts consist of things I’ve learned / am learning, but very rarely do I share the events ‘behind the scenes’…unless of course it’s something good, but if it’s not so good, I’d rather keep quiet and just write about the good stuff; somehow ‘skipping’ over those difficult things…mainly because of pride and not wanting to tell on myself…which is exactly what I’m about to do.

Today I was fasting, and because of that, I didn’t have a very high energy level or much ambition.  However, there is a lady down the road from us that’s a widow, and she had asked earlier this week if Ryan and I could help her rake leaves today.  We had said we would, and, I shamefully admit, when I was getting ready to go down there this afternoon, I did not have a servants heart…instead it was more of a selfish heart.

On the outside I was all “I’m glad we can help you out, it’s a beautiful day to be outside!”  but, I hate to say, that was not my hearts attitude…in fact, my hearts attitude was pretty nasty.  It was more along the lines of “I wish I were at home….I just don’t have energy…this is such a huge job…I’m hungry…why can’t we just leave them on the ground?”   Yeah…I said it wasn’t a real servants attitude!!

But I realized that, even though outwardly  I was ‘servant-like’, inwardly is what really matters.  At that time, a verse that my friend Tiana had e-mailed me earlier that week popped into my mind –

“Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 2:5

I knew my attitude was definitely NOT Christ-like. So, I started praying that God would change my heart and allow me to get my focus off myself and what I wanted, and to give me the servants heart that I needed.

After a while – a half hour or so – I suddenly realized that I was no longer hungry, and I actually had energy to do the work!  It took us about 5 hours to get it all done, and yes, I was tired by then, but it was a good kind of tired…and, I still wasn’t hungry  🙂

God has been showing me this week, that I need to have a more Christ-like attitude…and He has given me opportunities to practice this lesson…although I must say, I sure wish my attitude would have been Christ-like when I first started raking leaves, instead of a half-hour into the job.

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God’s Greater Yes :)

After I wrote my blog post about our newest blessing, the Cherry Bomb, I realized that, not only did God answer our prayer for a vehicle, but He also showed me His greater Yes 🙂

You see, I had been hoping and praying that mom and dad would be able to go to the couples WIT conference this year, but due to dad having to work, they weren’t able to go.  I was disappointed, but knew that God must have a better plan…a greater yes.

Had mom and dad gone to WIT, mom would not have been driving Ryan to work Saturday morning when she saw the van, and I doubt the van would still have been there, by the time they got back from WIT.

So God said ‘no’ to what I wanted and thought was best (mom and dad going to WIT), so that He could show me (all of us really) that He really did have a better plan…a greater yes (provision of a vehicle!).  And I am so glad He did!

Only What’s Done For Christ Will Last…

“Two little lines I heard one day,
Traveling along life’s busy way;
Bringing conviction to my heart,
And from my mind would not depart;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
 
Only one life, yes only one,
Soon will its fleeting hours be done;
Then, in ‘that day’ my Lord to meet,
And stand before His Judgement seat;
Only one life,’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
 
Only one life, the still small voice,
Gently pleads for a better choice
Bidding me selfish aims to leave,
And to God’s holy will to cleave;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
 
Only one life, a few brief years,
Each with its burdens, hopes, and fears;
Each with its clays I must fulfill,
living for self or in His will;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
 
When this bright world would tempt me sore,
When Satan would a victory score;
When self would seek to have its way,
Then help me Lord with joy to say;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
 
Give me Father, a purpose deep,
In joy or sorrow Thy word to keep;
Faithful and true what e’er the strife,
Pleasing Thee in my daily life;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
 
Oh let my love with fervor burn,
And from the world now let me turn;
Living for Thee, and Thee alone,
Bringing Thee pleasure on Thy throne;
Only one life, “twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
 
Only one life, yes only one,
Now let me say,”Thy will be done”;
And when at last I’ll hear the call,
I know I’ll say “twas worth it all”;
Only one life,’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last. ”
 
— extra stanza —
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
And when I am dying, how happy I’ll be,
If the lamp of my life has been burned out for Thee.”
 
C.T. Studd
 

The Cherry Bomb!!!

I can’t even begin to describe the excitement in our family this weekend!  We have FINALLY purchased a mini-van!!!!  After a LOT of waiting and a LOT of praying, the Lord brought the right one to us…in fact, it was right around the corner from where we live!   We were so blessed to be able to use our friends suburban for about 2 years, but back in June it was decommisioned due to I don’t remember what!

So, since June till now, we have only had the 3-seater truck…which makes it difficult to transport a family of 4 adults.  This past month however, our friend Tiana was very gracious, and would come stay at our place Saturday night and then take a couple of us in her car so that we could at least all go to church together!

Now to renew my drivers permit and get behind the wheel!!!!

The ‘Cherry Bomb’ 🙂