I have been back from Journey for 2 weeks now, and I’m still trying to process everything I learned and went through 🙂 I know I already shared my ‘testimony’, but it seems like there is still so much to tell!!
I’m going to come clean here and say, that, in all honesty, I did not want to go on that Journey, but God was telling me I needed to. I went back and forth on it for quite awhile…telling God I didn’t ‘feel’ like that’s where I ‘needed’ to be, and He reminded me of something I learned earlier this year – “Don’t wait for the feelings to obey; be obedient and the feelings will catch up.” (Tom Harmon)
So, after much prayer and tearful confrontation, I finally said, “Okay God, I’ll go…even though I don’t really ‘feel’ like it”…and I am SO glad I did!! The feelings did finally catch up 😉
One of the first days we were there, Mr. Gothard said something that really opened my eyes! It wasn’t profound, it wasn’t anything ‘amazing’, but it hit me like a ton of bricks. He said, “If you aren’t walking in freedom, there are only 2 reasons why. #1 – either you don’t know all the truth, or #2 – you aren’t applying the truth.”
Now, I’m sure I’ve heard that before, but that day, *click!* the light bulb went on! I knew the truth…I just wasn’t applying it! This was the case for several different areas of my life. I was always seeking ways to find freedom – reading books, going to conferences, listening to messages, etc. – but I wasn’t applying everything I was learning.
And let me tell you what…since God opened my eyes to that, He has given me several opportunities to apply truths in my life (sometimes more opportunities than I really care for!). But it has been so amazing how God has been working since I got back.
I still have things that I want to share, but I think I’ll let them wait until another day…