Being a Mom :)

I started writing this post July 9th, but since I don’t have internet access at home, it’s taken me a little while to actually get it posted 🙂  Enjoy!

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I’ve learned a lot about being a mom in the 4 weeks since Johnathan joined our little family.  It’s all been a learning experience, but it didn’t really hit me until yesterday, just what being a mom really is.

It’s sacrifice. 

I always knew being a mom wasn’t easy, and required a lot of work, but I never truly understood the amount of sacrifice, and selflessness it took.

Gone are the nights of being able just to sleep – here to stay for awhile, are the nights of getting up every few hours to nurse a hungry baby, change a messy diaper, and rock my little guy back to sleep…while fighting not to fall asleep myself.

Gone is the freedom that I used to have to just be able to take off with Kyle at a moment’s notice and go do something fun – now we either have to plan ahead, or sometimes I just get ‘left behind’ because it would be too difficult to take Johnathan.

Gone is the ability to “plan” my day – now it’s just a matter of getting done what I can while Johnathan’s sleeping, or between feedings, and diaper changes.

Gone are the days of being able to put on an outfit in the morning and wear it all day – I now have more laundry than ever, due to baby spit up, and overloaded, leaky diapers.

And if that was all I focused on, then life would be very discouraging and overwhelming right now.  But it’s so much more than that! It’s all the ‘little’ things that keep me going, and make it so worth the sacrifice, and selflessness…like a little toothless smile as he dozes off right after he’s eaten, or those times right after his bath, when he’s all fresh and clean and in his pajamas, and I can just cuddle and rock him.  It’s those little cooing noises he makes when he’s swinging in his swing; happy as can be.  It’s those big, baby blue eyes looking up at me; so full of wonder and amazement.  It’s his little hand holding tight to my finger.  It’s his little head on my shoulder as he sleeps; feeling his warm breath on my neck.  It’s the funny facial expressions he makes when he’s looking at me (my favorite is when he crosses his eyes and purses his lips!).

So yes, while life as a mother can be very taxing and draining (both physically and mentally), it can also be the most fulfilling thing ever!

But it does take an amazing amount of sacrifice and selflessness.  I have to learn to put Johnathan’s needs before my needs/wants.  I have to learn not to dwell on what I can no longer do, and instead, focus on what truly matters, and thank the Lord for this time of life.

I have found that the most difficult times for me, are when I do get my focus off of what matters, and focus totally on myself and what I’m not getting.  When that happens, I find myself very emotional and worn out (just ask Kyle, he’ll tell you just how emotional I can be at times! 🙂 ).

I’ve said to myself during difficult times that “this too shall pass”. But at the same time, I don’t want to miss out on this time of life.  There are so many little joys at this stage, if I just keep my focus where it needs to be.

Let me end by saying this…..being a mom is wonderful – albeit challenging at times – and I wouldn’t trade it for anything! 🙂

Sara & John

 

Changes :)

The past almost 9 months have gone by VERY quickly, and I have not done a very good job at keeping my blog updated!  It seems like my life has been so full of changes here lately, I’m not sure where to even begin!

The end of February, Kyle started a new, full-time job.  It has been challenging for him at times, but also a time of growing and reaching out to the others that he works with (a light in the darkness, you might say).  We weren’t sure at first how the work would affect his back problems since he would be driving a fork-lift, but Praise the Lord, his back has been doing incredibly well!  This, of course, was encouraging to both of us!

Along with Kyle taking on the new job, I had to take on a new “job” as well…learning how to encourage him when he would come home after a bad day.  There were many times when I would get discouraged when it seemed like nothing I said was helping.  It was through these times that God taught me to “shut up & pray”.  And, as I began to fervently pray that God would either give me the words I needed to encourage Kyle, or that He would encourage him in some way that I couldn’t, I began to see a positive change almost immediately!  I was SO encouraged 🙂

Oh…and let’s not forget to toss in all the emotions, and mood swings I have endured (and Kyle has too!), throughout this pregnancy!  I have been blessed with a very caring, and understanding husband!  He does his best to understand what I am going through, and why in the world I’m crying, when just a few moments ago I was totally fine! 😉

As our little one has continued to grow strong and healthy, I have loved feeling the kicks and almost constant movement!  There were times, however, when I wished it would stop moving so I could go to sleep, or that it would at least get its feet out of my ribs so I could be comfortable….but then I would remember a young couple that we know, that experienced a miscarriage not too long ago.  Oh how I’m sure she would love to feel what I was feeling, and here I was complaining that I wasn’t comfortable!  I would then begin to thank God for our little one even more…even if it did mean I couldn’t breathe, or sleep comfortably.

Like I said, our lives have been full of changes, and we experienced another big change about a week ago…

You see, Kyle and I both pretty much grew up living in the country, but when we got married, we rented a house in town from his dad (a HUGE blessing, let me tell you!).  While we liked the house we were in, and it wasn’t so bad being in town over the winter, we were seriously considering moving when Springtime rolled around.

Long story short, at around the middle to end of April, we were totally ready to move, and even had a house lined up (one that his dad owned out in the country!).  When we went to look at the house, (it had been quite awhile since I had seen inside), we suddenly did not have a peace about it, and, after much thought and prayer, decided we would stay in town…after all, that house was working just fine for us, and we would have room for baby.

The beginning of May, Kyle was out to the other house helping his dad with some things, and when he got home I knew something was up.  He asked to sit down and talk (something he does NOT normally do!).  He told me he thought we should reconsider moving.  We went that night and looked at the house again, and suddenly I knew…this was where were supposed to be!  We both had such a peace about it, and instantly knew we’d better start packing 🙂

We wanted to be all moved and settled before the baby was born, so about a week ago, with the help of family, and the use of their trucks and trailers, we got a majority of our stuff moved in!  There are still some things that need to be moved, but we’re working on it as we can.

We absolutely LOVE it here!  Being able to watch sunrises and sunsets, hear the birds, see fields all around us, and just enjoying the peace and quiet has been SUCH a blessing! Not to mention we are also a lot closer to family, and that makes it really nice for getting together and visiting 🙂

As I sat out on our porch swing yesterday, watching Kyle grill steaks, and just enjoying the afternoon, I told him that, I don’t think we would appreciate this place as much if we’d been given the opportunity to move here right after we got married, instead of living in town.  He agreed.  It’s amazing how much you can take for granted, until you don’t have it.

We feel so blessed right now!  With only 3 weeks until the baby’s due, excitement has been building in our little home as we prepare for his/her arrival!  There’s a pack-n-play set up in the corner of the living room, and a bassinet up in our room, waiting to be assembled.  Baby washcloths and lotion sit on the bathroom shelf, and a car seat graces the back seat of our Bravada 🙂

God also blessed us very greatly a yard sale! We were able to get a pack-n-play, car seat with 2 bases, infant swing, and stroller, all for about a fifth of the price it would have been brand new! Kyle said it’s crazy that he’s getting excited over ‘baby finds’ at garage sales, but I think it’s cute 🙂

So, as Kyle and I get ready to celebrate our 9 month anniversary on Saturday (good gravy, where did the time go?!), and also prepare for yet another change the end of this month, with the arrival of our little one,  we would greatly appreciate your prayers!

God has been so good to us!

 

A Look Back at 2013

I remember writing my ‘Look Back at 2012″ blog post, and thinking, ‘man, this was a busy year!’.  Little did I know that 2013 would be even busier, and have even more changes!

The end of December 2012, Kyle and I had started to talk about God leading us to a courtship and eventually marriage.

In early January, Kyle began prolotherapy treatments on his back, to see if they would help with the extreme back pain he was struggling with.  Even though it took several months and the treatments were very painful, they did, in fact, help his back tremendously!  Over those months, however, God took us through times of struggle; not knowing when to enter an ‘official’ courtship, since we didn’t know when his back would be healed and he would be able to work and support a family, and other times of discouragement.

The plan was finally set that, on April 17th (exactly 9 years after we met), we would ‘officially’ start courting (I wasn’t supposed to know this, but had insider information 🙂 ) Things did not go as planned.  My grandpa passed away April 11th, and since dad really wanted Kyle involved in the funeral as a paul-bearer, we ‘went official’ April 12th.

The month of May was filled with wedding plans and yard sales!  The Lord blessed us tremendously with a lot of wonderful deals on furniture and other items we needed 🙂  We also set our wedding date, but did not announce it, since there hadn’t been an official engagement, due to certain reasons.

June was also filled with more wedding plans and yard sales, and on the 28th, an official marriage proposal was made!

July was filled with, you guessed it!, more wedding plans 🙂  And also family gatherings, and anything else we could squeeze into our schedule 🙂  We did a lot of fishing over the summer as well, with some friends of ours, and that was quite fun!

August came, and with it both of our birthdays 🙂  Last minute wedding details were put into place, and we anxiously counted down the days!

Then came the blessed day!  September 7th!  There were SO many people willing to help out with anything that needed done, and that made the day go so much better!  Everything went well (including smashing cake in each other’s face!), and the day went incredibly fast!  We had a very relaxing honeymoon at a cottage on a lake for a whole week!

Then came October, and with it, the news that, the end of June, there would be an addition to our little family!  We were thrilled!

November came flying in before we knew it, and, while still trying to get settled in, there was the hustle and bustle of family get togethers, and Kyle being busy with work 🙂  I was still struggling with pregnancy sickness, and feeling exhausted, but I managed to make it through 🙂

December arrived, and with its arrival, came the departure of the pregnancy sickness!  Just in time for Christmas dinners and lots of good food!!!  It was also our first Christmas together, and that made it even more special and fun! 🙂

So, with today being the last day of 2013,  it amazes me to look back and see all the changes that took place this year!  A year ago tonight, Kyle and I were just starting to pursue that much desired relationship we felt God was leading us to, and now, here we are…married, and with a baby on the way 🙂   God has been SO good to us!  We don’t even deserve half of what He’s done for us!!!

The verse God gave me a year ago tonight was, “You crown the year with your bounty, and your carts overflow with abundance.”  Psalm 65:11

Praise the Lord for ALL He has done!!

Happy New Year Everyone!

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Changing Roles

I’ve been thinking back to this time last year, and just pondering how much things have changed since then and how many ‘roles’ I have been in! Last October I was single, and unsure what God had planned as far as a relationship between Kyle and I.

Then came December, when Kyle and I started courting (although we weren’t ‘official’ until April), and I took on the role of girlfriend…and in June the role of Fiancé! Then that blissful day in September, I once again changed roles as I became Kyle’s wife 🙂

But the changing of roles isn’t finished yet…

I have taken on another role…

The role of being a momma!

That’s right! The Lord has chosen to bless us with a little one, due the end of June 2014!

There is great excitement in our home as we discuss names, what we think the baby will look like, and whether it will be a boy or a girl 🙂

God has surely blessed us!

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