Changes :)

The past almost 9 months have gone by VERY quickly, and I have not done a very good job at keeping my blog updated!  It seems like my life has been so full of changes here lately, I’m not sure where to even begin!

The end of February, Kyle started a new, full-time job.  It has been challenging for him at times, but also a time of growing and reaching out to the others that he works with (a light in the darkness, you might say).  We weren’t sure at first how the work would affect his back problems since he would be driving a fork-lift, but Praise the Lord, his back has been doing incredibly well!  This, of course, was encouraging to both of us!

Along with Kyle taking on the new job, I had to take on a new “job” as well…learning how to encourage him when he would come home after a bad day.  There were many times when I would get discouraged when it seemed like nothing I said was helping.  It was through these times that God taught me to “shut up & pray”.  And, as I began to fervently pray that God would either give me the words I needed to encourage Kyle, or that He would encourage him in some way that I couldn’t, I began to see a positive change almost immediately!  I was SO encouraged 🙂

Oh…and let’s not forget to toss in all the emotions, and mood swings I have endured (and Kyle has too!), throughout this pregnancy!  I have been blessed with a very caring, and understanding husband!  He does his best to understand what I am going through, and why in the world I’m crying, when just a few moments ago I was totally fine! 😉

As our little one has continued to grow strong and healthy, I have loved feeling the kicks and almost constant movement!  There were times, however, when I wished it would stop moving so I could go to sleep, or that it would at least get its feet out of my ribs so I could be comfortable….but then I would remember a young couple that we know, that experienced a miscarriage not too long ago.  Oh how I’m sure she would love to feel what I was feeling, and here I was complaining that I wasn’t comfortable!  I would then begin to thank God for our little one even more…even if it did mean I couldn’t breathe, or sleep comfortably.

Like I said, our lives have been full of changes, and we experienced another big change about a week ago…

You see, Kyle and I both pretty much grew up living in the country, but when we got married, we rented a house in town from his dad (a HUGE blessing, let me tell you!).  While we liked the house we were in, and it wasn’t so bad being in town over the winter, we were seriously considering moving when Springtime rolled around.

Long story short, at around the middle to end of April, we were totally ready to move, and even had a house lined up (one that his dad owned out in the country!).  When we went to look at the house, (it had been quite awhile since I had seen inside), we suddenly did not have a peace about it, and, after much thought and prayer, decided we would stay in town…after all, that house was working just fine for us, and we would have room for baby.

The beginning of May, Kyle was out to the other house helping his dad with some things, and when he got home I knew something was up.  He asked to sit down and talk (something he does NOT normally do!).  He told me he thought we should reconsider moving.  We went that night and looked at the house again, and suddenly I knew…this was where were supposed to be!  We both had such a peace about it, and instantly knew we’d better start packing 🙂

We wanted to be all moved and settled before the baby was born, so about a week ago, with the help of family, and the use of their trucks and trailers, we got a majority of our stuff moved in!  There are still some things that need to be moved, but we’re working on it as we can.

We absolutely LOVE it here!  Being able to watch sunrises and sunsets, hear the birds, see fields all around us, and just enjoying the peace and quiet has been SUCH a blessing! Not to mention we are also a lot closer to family, and that makes it really nice for getting together and visiting 🙂

As I sat out on our porch swing yesterday, watching Kyle grill steaks, and just enjoying the afternoon, I told him that, I don’t think we would appreciate this place as much if we’d been given the opportunity to move here right after we got married, instead of living in town.  He agreed.  It’s amazing how much you can take for granted, until you don’t have it.

We feel so blessed right now!  With only 3 weeks until the baby’s due, excitement has been building in our little home as we prepare for his/her arrival!  There’s a pack-n-play set up in the corner of the living room, and a bassinet up in our room, waiting to be assembled.  Baby washcloths and lotion sit on the bathroom shelf, and a car seat graces the back seat of our Bravada 🙂

God also blessed us very greatly a yard sale! We were able to get a pack-n-play, car seat with 2 bases, infant swing, and stroller, all for about a fifth of the price it would have been brand new! Kyle said it’s crazy that he’s getting excited over ‘baby finds’ at garage sales, but I think it’s cute 🙂

So, as Kyle and I get ready to celebrate our 9 month anniversary on Saturday (good gravy, where did the time go?!), and also prepare for yet another change the end of this month, with the arrival of our little one,  we would greatly appreciate your prayers!

God has been so good to us!

 

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My Journey from Within pt. 3

Lisa’s testimony continues…….

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I always wanted more children, but wasn’t able to try till I got off of some of my depression meds, so I had a 9 year wait where God continued to work on our lives.  In the mean time, Steve became Immersed and gave his life to Jesus, I became very involved in church, teaching youth group, directing VBS, doing doing doing, which wasn’t all bad but…. Well let’s wait and see how good can be over shadowed or can become deceitful once again…. 

In 2000 Faith came along after much wait.  She was supposed to be named Alivia or Alizabeth after all I had 9 years to come up with a name.  But in the learning process her name had to become Faith.  It came to me one night how my faith was a representation of what it took for me to have another baby, the pregnancy was long and held many hospital stays because of very high blood pressure and being labeled as a high risk pregnancy. 

I was tested for everything from A to Z but they couldn’t find anything wrong with this one.  I spent the last 2 1/2 months on bed rest and finally the last 3 weeks in the Toledo Hospital.  But all worth the ride as we came home with Faith Diane, again the representation of my total trust in my God.  Hebrews 11:1, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” 

The next several years were spent at being a stay at home mom to our new baby and our pre-teen, complicated by the cloud of having a disability, she never fit in with the “normal” kids, or with the kids “labeled with a disability.”  In spite of it all life was pretty good, we took a big step and moved in with my mom and dad and totally redid our home, it took three months.  In the mean time I hadn’t been feeling very good and my family Dr. changed my depression meds, hoping it might help, which totally messed them up and it threw me into my second depression in 2003.  

Depression meds take a little bit of time to come out of the body but a long time to get back into the body.  This is when I spent about a week in Wauseon on the 5th floor as an intensive outpatient in the stress center.  This is where I learned that I really wasn’t crazy at all.  A learning experience…..depressed but definitely not crazy.  I had a dr. that was, let’s see how do I put it, incompetent, to say the least, but she held all of the control as the inpatient dr. (which was responsible for the intensive outpatients) so till I could get into the outpatient psychiatrist I had to deal with her. 

We had words and she refused to see me, even after all of the counselors went on my behalf to her.  Well, once again God showed me that He was bigger than the situation, I was going down the elevator and when the door opened and guess who He delivered to me? 🙂 I got my meeting with her; at this point she had no choice.   After intense outpatient I was discharged, got my meds straightened out with my new psychiatrist and set out to put my days back together, with much support from my God, my family and my friends.

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TO BE CONTINUED